Saturday, December 24, 2011
Life goes on... With you or Without you. (this includes Christmas)
As Mom got older...our roles changed. her excitement for Christmas didn't go away ... but now she was the one receiving the presents and I was the one excited for her to see what I got her. And if it was a dud...lol she wasn't much of a poker face.. it showed. So I usually got her a couple of things.. in case.
Last year she couldn't leave the home, so we all went to her nursing home room and said Merry Christmas. She wasn't very enthused. Could tell her spirit was down. Then she opened her present from Ryan & Sarah. It was a shiny fuzzy purse... hard to describe. but it had bling and Mom woke UP. lol She kept it in her bed and layed down to sleep with it. Even calling out to the hall to be sure I hadn't taken it with me. lol
I'd give anything to hear Silent Night sang out of tune, be a child, my mom watch me open a present with so much anticipation of MY reaction to it, to see her gush over a flashy purse.
But what I DO have this Christmas? All of those memories. All of those values,. All of the love she ever gave me every day and every Christmas morning. It all goes to preparing you for when they aren't there. My Mom can't be here with me this Christmas... but... it's because she's spending it at home.